This is the story of an angel and a human. The thing is, the angel is obsessed with the human. They became lovers. The human told another human friend. Let's call this friend THE KEEPER. The KEEPER, a very observant person, made some observations with speculative reasoning, which he decided not to disclose because it's still early and premature. Sometime later, the Keeper told a Goddess about the angel and the human as well as his "observations". Unfortunately, the human asked the Goddess about it. The Goddess, being a benevolent entity, told the human about it. Since the Goddess told the human, the keeper immediately responded by sharing his whole observation with the human. This ignited a rift between the angel and the human. The Keeper immediately moved into action and tried to appease the angel. Asking forgiveness for the observations.
From the story I am the Keeper. I told the human that those observations where nothing, because they have no basis. Speculation nga diba? Hindi ko alam kung bakit nya dinidibdib. Ako nga yung hindi makatulog kasi iniisip ko kung what if matuloy yung mga deductions ko? Deductions or observations with speculative reasoning is part of analytical intuition. Lagi kong nagagawang ipredict yung mga mangyayari by simply observing and analyzing these observations. I'm sorry but I cannot share here the deduction 1. But with deduction 2, I made a "wall defense" strategy para maiwasan na maging object of jealousy ako ni human. Napredict ko na mangyayari yun by a factor of 77.72%.
Wall Defense Strategy
You can take the wall defense strategy literally. It is simply building an invisible wall around the angel. That's the defense part. The Offensive part of the strategy is shifting to my other trait which I call Tonying, the cruel, aggressive, and ruthless part of me. Malevolent so to speak. The Tactical Objective of this strategy is for me to be out of the picture. For their relationship to exist without my help.
During the conflict, my Fred personality kicked in, the reserved, timid, and protective part of me. Inako ko yung responsibilidad sa rift between the angel and the human. Inako ko yung kasalanan. Kasi sabi ng utak ko, kasalanan ko kasi sinabi ko agad kay human. Sinabi din ni Angel na "isipin mo din yung mararamdaman ng ibang tao". Umiyak ako. Umiyak ako kasi ako naging dahilan ng rift nila. "hindi ko na mababawi yung taong mahal ko" sabi ni angel. Alam mo yun guilt ha? Alam mo yun?
Umiyak ako kasi naiinis ako! Hindi ko kasalanan ang nangyari sa kanilang dalawa. I warned the human beforehand that it is still premature eh atat syang malaman. Nung nalaman naman nya kung anu anu pinag-iisip nya! NILA! Speculations yun! Hindi natin sure kung mangyayari yun! Kaya ko ginawa yung Wall Defense strategy para maiwasan mangyari yung deduction 2. Hindi naman para saken yun! Gusto ko maging friend si Angel pero isasacrifice ko yung friendship na yun para lang magwork yung relationship nila. hindi ko din alam pano naging factor yung deductions ko sa away nila. Did I shot the bull's eye? Perhaps. Pero hindi ko talaga alam kung pano napasok yung deductions ko sa usapan nila. They're just being sensitive to something na hindi naman problema. There are more battles ahead. Kung ganyan ka weak yung trust sa isa't isa pano pa yung talagang paghuhusga na ang ibato sa kanila? Ewan ko. I am frustrated because I asked forgiveness to something na hindi naman ako ang main factor. The truth hurts but you should face it.
NOTE TO SELF: NEVER ASK FORGIVENESS IF IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT.