It is one of the normal scenario in every gay man's life. You may say it's simply one of the bridges of trial that we have to cross. It's not easy task, mind you. You will be bombarded with fantasies of your desire which shall blind you the seemingly weak plank in that wooden bridge. One step on that, and you fall waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaayyyy down. Based on experience, it is really hard to get that up on that bridge again. And you have to start over. But the beauty of the bridge of fantasy trials, it is sturdy; You just need to have the right mind to be able to cross it...

Just a few weeks ago, I severed ties with a close friend. The reason behind doing so is deeply rooted to this Bridge of Fantasy. I understand that he is a late bloomer for this kind of thing. But I just don't get it why he has not learn anything from his very own experiences. I believe that this sort of thing is essential for every gay man to learn by himself because it will provide you with enough pain to be stronger. But I simply become an absorber of his negativity and angst that stems from his immaturity.

I had enough.

Well, he was the first to snap when I blatantly told him the realities of his present predicament. What kind of brothers have sex with each other?" He fired back with a tirade of sentiments all saying the same thing: he thought I would listen. I was listening. I was listening to every cup of angst, every bottle of jealousy, and every slice hatred for every person going in between every MEN in his life. And I am highlighting this. HIS PROBLEM IS JUST THE SAME SCENARIO WITH DIFFERENT MEN!!!

Hatred Cycle
1. There is a new guy.
2. They will communicate regularly through text. Text when he wakes up, Text when he is going somewhwere, Text when he is breathing in and out, Text when he is closing his eyes to sleep.
3. They will develop a special bond.
4. They will have attachment in differing levels. He will emotionally invest more evident when he is doing special services to the guy.
5. They will have endearment. The special name calling phase (Kuya, Bestfriend,Boyfriend, etc)
6. There will be an issue. Guy will suddenly have a change of heart due to multitude of reasons / He will have cold feet about the relationship because he considers homosexual relationships as a sin / He will create his own issue because he acts like a jealous obsessed girlfriend.
7. He will leave the guy because he wants to be alone for a while. He will enter what we call his Ermitanyo mode wherein he cannot be found anywhere as if he retreated to some oddly world dimension.
8. He will come out of hiding and tries to fix things with the guy.
9. His effort will be in vain because the endearment is gone. He starts to curse the world for going against his relationship with the guy. Though he stills deny any feelings for the guy only shadowing it with the term, bestfriend, kuya, etc.
10. His heart will break and will cry.
11. As his heart recuperates, he meets a new guy.
12. Rinse and Repeat.

What I am frustrated the most is that in every complete cycle he just laments that it was his fault. It is always his fault anyway. He acts like an overly jealous and obsessed girlfriend. From what I read in Cosmo's top ten list of signs of being an obsessed girlfriend, he's a 10/10. What's more, HE IS NOT EVEN THE GUY'S GIRLFRIEND!!! HE ACTS LIKE IT BUT DENIES HAVING FEELINGS FOR THE GUY! Clearly, there is really a fine line between caring for a person and obsession.

But here's a shocker, "Ganun naman kasi talaga ako..." That's his defense for being that way. And he wouldn't change anything because that's the way he is he says. Yet, he always questions why everyone is leaving him. "Ganyan ka kasi...", is my short answer to that.

I do admit that I'm really hard on him. Perhaps because I went through the same thing. Same heartache. Same self-loathing. But those experiences changed me. Because I learned a lot from them. And those things made me who I am now. And I can say they changed me for the better. Which I think he still fighting to do. If only he will understand that he needs to make some changes regarding his attitude and way of life, he will be enlightened.

For a long time, I denied I have feelings for Albert when we were in college. I did. Not because I was scared he would reject me, but because I was just happy just being with him. That's why I acted like a girlfriend without saying anything, without expressing i wanted anything. Because I knew what my part was, I was his bestfriend and I was not his girlfriend. I never demanded that he fetch me, take me home, get me something on my birthday or text me everyday. I enjoy being beside him. Though that wasn't enough for me emotionally, but I knew that is the only scenario that I can settle in.

Naiilang ako...

When I first heard Albert say that and it was referenced to me, my world shattered. It hurt me more because I was really doing my best to just settle to just being beside him. And this is me not acting overly jealous and obsessed. What more for this friend of mind who acts like such.

Kung gusto mo kasing ikaw lang, jowain mo na.

That's the best advice that I gave him, but he retaliated with I'm not into him, I just don't look at him that way. Yeah right, then you have sex or you exchange kinky text message/pictures? Oh yeah. Tooooootally bestfriend-y/brotherly stuff.

If you call him Kuya, act like a little brother. If you call him your bestfriend, act like your his bestfriend. Don't mistake his endearment of friendship or special relationship like that of passionate love. Just because you are giving him attention, doesn't mean he is compelled to do the same to you. It's a free world. You just need to understand the fact that your into him and his not into you. You deny and deny, but that's the truth. Obsession is a negative form of love. It destroys relationships not bridge them. If you continue with this obsessive form of love, you just going through the cycle all over again.

Just like you, I have important men in my life. I have special names that I call them as they have with me. But i love them selflessly, without asking anything in return. Though sometimes I do have dirty thoughts of them with me, but I am bounded to the principle that I made for myself. That I will never have sex with any of them and I will never ask for anything in return. I do it because it makes me happy. And of course, because I love them and I enjoy being with them.

Open your eyes to reality. This is the real world. Wake up from your fantasy dreamland of your naked boys whom you call Kuya or Bestfriend. If you want to be with them do it right. Do not deny your feelings. You're just not being true to yourself.

ANDA

Definition: Money, Pera

Derivative:s
Ang Duchess of York, Dats, Datung

Etymology:
Ang ANDA ay binaliktad na dalawang pantig ng salitang DAAN. Uso kasi nung mga early 90's na binabaliktad ang mga salita para yung TSEKOT para sa KOTSE, GOLI para sa LIGO, at kung anik anik pa! Hanggang sa umiral nanaman ang creative juices ng mga early dyosas na mga sosyalin. Para "sounding sosyal" nauso ang paggamit sa derivative na Ang Duchess of York na pangalan ng totoong dugong bughaw. Napansin mo ba na katunog ng ANDA yung ANG DUCHESS OF YORK? Yun lang ang dahilan nun, wala nang malalim na dahilan. Hanggang sa siguro nahabaan na rin sila ANG DUCHESS OF YORK kaya naging DUCHESS OF YORK nalang.

Overtime naging DATS nalang ang tawag sa Pink Money. May dalawa ako theory kung bakit naging ganyan. Nauso siguro yung mga baklang social climber nuon at nakikiuso sa Duchess of York. Hindi rin nila siguro mapronounce mabuti at hindi rin nila alam kung ano ang Duchess na tinatawag nilang DATSES... Naging DATS nalang para safe!

Eventually, nauso na ang pagtawag sa pera na ngyon ay ginagamit ng girl boy bakla tomboy, DATUNG. Ang theory ko dyan, nilagayan siguro ng German suffix yung DATS. Kaya ito naging DATSUNG. Tas eventually, nagtransform na at naging DATUNG.

Oi! Lahat ng ito hypothesis lang ha! Pawang imagination at kabalbalan lamang na kahit papano ay may logic! Bwahahha! Don't forget to use #BekiEtymology when sharing!!!

Nanunuood aketch ng Maskman nang biglang tumunog ang tugtog ng isang plawta...



Isang lalaking nakashades mula malayo ang naglalakad papalapit...



Sa kanya nagmumula ang tugtog ng plawta...



patuloy sya sa pag tugtog at tinggal nya ang shades nya...



SHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEET!!!! Ang CUTE!!!!

Alam ko na sa simula palang kung sino sya... kaya nung dumating na ang climax...




Eto ang tunay na katauhan nya...



Sya ang Human form ni Guron Doggler...

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Pero gosh!!! Grabeh sa cute netong guest star ng Maskman ah! His name is Yasuhiro Ishiwata, nung nakita ko pa lang sya sa first scene na naclose up yung face nya, crush ko na sya!!! Wahahaahhah!

Sa episode na ito ng Maskman, nain-love si Gron Doggler sa isang babae na nagligtas sa kanya centuries ago. Nakipag deal sya kay Emperor Zeba na tatalunin nya ang mga Maskmen kung bibigyan nya sya ng kakayahan magkaron ng human body. Nang sumalakay na ang pwerse ng Underground Tube, nagbago ng ihip ng hangin nang masilayan ni Gron Doggler si Momoko (aka Pink Mask). Kamukhang kamukha kasi ni Momoko yung babaeng nagligtas kay Gron Doggler dati. At nagsimula na ang maikling love story ni Hikaru (human name ni Gron Doggler) at Momoko.

Inferness ha! Di ko inexpect na madaming flavors of scorned love ang Maskman ah! Akala ko kina Michael Joe at Rio lang ang dramang yun...

Anyhoo...

I did some research kay Cutie guest star... Apparently, member sya nung last installment ng sentai series prior to Maskman, ang Flashman. Sya si Blue Flash.

Nagguest star din sya with Kanako Maeda (yung gumanap na Momoko) sa Jetman, at magkapartner sila ulet! Lovers on screen ang peg nila! whahhaha!


Oh yeah!

"Sexual orientation is not determined by one's behavior. Sexual orientation is determined by one's desires."

I read that line somewhere in this vast universe called cyberspace. Whoever you are, I take my hat off to you. It is by far the most powerful statement that I have read about homosexuality.

People behave differently depending on their beliefs. Most of the closetted gays (or at least they try to be) I know tell me that they will change their ways. They will stop it the "transformation" from progressing as if they will clad sailor uniforms with elemental powers once its complete. The sad thing about their stop-the-metamorphosis litany is because they believe they will go to Hell is they don't change their ways or they are afraid they will be alone in the future.

haaaaay... Same old same old.

The thing is with my closetted friends is that they tend to worry about other people's point of view rather than their own; Also, worrying about a very negative future. I am not the most religious person around but one thing I learned from being a student of Catholic schools for 9 years, the central theme of the Holy Book is Love. Literal interpretation of what's written there is dangerous. Especially since those times of slavery and conquerors are long gone. Therefore, the norms and cultures are different from then and now. I can cite multiple things stated in the Bible that are now obsolete. But I will leave it to other articles in the blogosphere. Do your assignment and check those out. Also, though this is just my personal point of view, in the olden times, the males are easily regarded as the more superior gender. Hence, the Bible is written in this very masculine-centric viewpoint. Sodomy, i.e. Barebacking, is a form of punishment then because it lowers the level of those being sodomized as the aggressive inserter of the phallus to the helpless receiver of the phallus and they become a plaything just like how they view women those days. Now, doing a homosexual act among males is looked down upon because of the fact that it is now consensual. One male is willing to go down a notch down so that he can give pleasure to his lover. Isn't this sacrifice? Isn't this an expression of love. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that homosexual love is strictly about sex. But hell, that's what the Bible explicitly denounces. A man sharing a bed with another man just like he does his wife. Not a man loving another man.

Moving on, I just get frustrated when they tell me that the only future for gay men is a picture of loneliness. I beg to disagree. What is your basis for saying that I will grow up lonely? Sorry! Is your cheating husband and your dumb kids your picture of a happy life? Vocabulary lesson, the word gay means happy. Since the Filipinos have close-knit family ties, everyone is expected to turn out good. And when I they say good it means finish school, get a job, have kids and the cycle will go on. And that's their equation of happiness. If they continue this cycle, they will be happy. Well not for me.

I think the reason why my closetted friends believe the shit that they will be alone in the future because of the notion that no one will truly love a gay man. That's so two thousand late. We are in the day and age that gay men love other gay men. The idea that gay men will only love straight men is so out. Plus with the proliferation of Bisexuals... OHHOOOOH YEAH!!! *pun intended*

My advice to my friends, go ahead. Try it. Change your ways. Even if you totally remove the rainbow connection from your system, yet what you desire is love from other men. Well... You know what you really are; Best of luck on escaping your true self.

Puti
ni Wilter von Phar

Pumikit
ngunit sa halip na dilim ay puti.
Mga mata'y nakatanaw sa dibuhong lalaki.

Pumintig
nang ang liwanag ay humalik.
Mga labi'y sabik na sabik.

Huminga
nang walang kasing lalim na dagat
haplos at init sa liwanag ang ugat

Humangos
dahil pandaliang pantangi'y nawaglit.
Matapos mangalay at may puting sumirit.

Dahil Buwan ng Wika, sige gumawa tayo ng mga tulang Filipino! May inaalala akong tao sa tulang ito. Sya talaga nag buong dahilan kaya ko sinulat ito.

Please play the video above before proceeding...
Ang Original na baklang Kontrabida!

Shinkan Poe aka Babaylan Ida from Space Sheriff Shaider
Ang sumunod na pumalit sa Trono!

Ida II from Zaido: Pulis Pangkalawakan
Move over Ida and Ida II!!! May bagong bakla nang tatalbog sa inyo!

Inang Dyosa Whilhelmina
PAK!!!!

Kidding aside...

Si Great Priest Shinkan Poe o mas kilala nating Babaylan Ida ay unang unang gay icon na inidolo ko. Yes, bata palang ako may gaydar na ako. At amoy na amoy ko ang transvestite na apo ni Fuma Ley-Ar! Last year natapos ko finally yung Shaider, nalaman ko na hindi sya napatay ni Shaider! Since napatay ni Shaider si Fuma Ley-Ar, naggive up nalang sya kasi ginagawa nya lang lahat ng mga bagay na yun kasi utos sa kanya ng lolo Ley-Ar nya. Kaya ayun, nung ni-seal ni Shaider yung tomb ni Fuma Ley-Ar, kasama nang naseal sa loob si Shinkan Poe.

Para saken si Shinkan Poe pa din ang pinakabad-ass na Primera Baklang Kontrabida!

Sabay sabay tayong lahat!!!!
TIME SPACE WARP NGAYON DIN!!!!

It's already been a month since the controversial airing of the pilot of my new addiction, My Husband's Lover. It's also been weeks after the CBCP gave a "reminder" about the show's sensitive theme. Only to be, sorry there is no word for it, masupalpal with GMA's statement about the show.

“GMA Network welcomes the scrutiny of the Catholic Bishops Conference of the Philippines (CBCP) of our primetime program ‘My Husband’s Lover’. We believe that our program while tackling sensitive real-life situations is produced with utmost prudence and in good taste. The Movie and Television Review and Classification Board or MTRCB has given the program an SPG (Strong Parental Guidance) rating and GMA is committed to comply with all its standards.

We would like to thank all the viewers of ‘My Husband’s Lover’ for supporting our program not just by watching it but via intelligent discussions and comments in all forms of media. The Kapuso Network is pleased with the high ratings that ‘My Husband’s Lover’ has achieved in its first two weeks and would like to assure the Filipino audience that we will continue to produce relevant and entertaining programs.” - GMA Network

I think this is just a battle Open-minded people vs close-minded people. I really don't get what their concern is with the show. There always this concern about the youth with the likes of CBCP. Honestly, I really don't know why they are concerned. Here's my comment to this guy. He commented in Jessica Zafra's article in Interaksyon.com and he, just like the CBCP, is concerned about the youth having Gender Confusion. I was trying to comment but kept receiving error messages. So here is my reply to him.

Let's chop it too.

1st issue: Taga Tondo ako so I guess kahit hindi ko personally nakita yung mga taga-riles sa Blumentritt at eskinita sa QC, I have credibility to say I know this people with "given socio economic status". Question. Pag mahirap, bobo agad? this is what "given their socio economic status" implies right? These people are parents too. You don't need a college diploma to explain to your kids what the show is trying to impart. Also, the rating SPG does not mean your kids can't watch it and the parents should turn of the TV when it is rated SPG. STRIKTONG PATNUBAY NG MAGULANG means the parents should be their with the kids while their watching it so as to avoid confusion and the parents can explain the matter to them at real time. Let the parents do their job as parents, at least give them that chance.

2nd issue: We have confusion. Then realization. Then conclusion. That's how people learn. Try remembering your first math class. Nuff said.

3rd issue: Let the kids decide if they want to watch it. Then stick to the SPG rating with the parents watching it with them. Matalino pala ang mga bata ngayon eh. Let them use their brains and think about the show's message. She's right you know. We start as gay kids and grow up as gay men. Gay Professional Men who contribute well to the society. Also, hindi ka magiging bakla pag nanuod ka ng My Husband's Lover. Bakit magkakaron ng confusion ang mga bata just from watching the show? Baka naman what your trying to say is baka makarelate sila? Di kaya?

I will iterate...

HINDI NAKAKABAKLA PANUORIN ANG MY HUSBAND'S LOVER

The show is a reflection of what is happening to the society. The show depicts real life that everything is believable. Also, in terms of execution, tt is the prime example that you don't need flesh exposure or kissing scenes between two males to make the show appealing to the gay milieu. The simple scenes that we can relate to and the kilig moments are enough to keep us hooked.

That is why I don't see anything wrong with the show. It is done in good taste and well applies to the masses curious buds.

Ang blog post na ito ay nainspire ng bonggang bonggang show na My Husband's Lover ng GMA Telebabad. I must say super happy ako sa show na ito. Hindi ko pa napapanood lahat ng episodes habang sinusulat ko ang blogpost na ito. First five palang yung natatapos ko. Pero I must say super accurate ang depiction ng facets of a gay man's life. Super! Kaya nga nainspire akong isulat ito. I will answer all the questions perennially asked to a dyosa like me.

Maraming beses na din natanong sakin kung may balak akong mag-asawa at kung may balak ako magkaanak. Isa lang naman ang lagi kong sagot dyan. Isang malaking...

Depende.

Pero sigurado ako hindi ako mag-aasawa ng babae at hindi ako magkakaanak through intercourse with a girl.

Depende, kasi hindi din naman ako sure na makakatagpo ako ng lalaking para saken. Yes. Lalake ang gusto ko. Hindi ko magets kung bakit ang mga taong nagtatanong saken eh pinagpipilitan na iba pa din pag babae ang papakasalan ko. Ang pangaral kasi ay ang lalake ay para sa babae at vice versa. Para yun sa mga straight. Pero sa katulad ko na di straight or isang homosexual, dito na nagkakatalo.

Hindi ko maintindihan kung ano ang pinag-iba ng mag-asawang lalaki at babae sa mag-asawang lalaki at lalaki. In an ideal sense, kung pareho lang naman na pagmamahal ang syang ugat ng relasyon, bakit mag-kaiba sila? Why is one considered a taboo? Don't get me wrong, hindi patungkol ang post na ito about marriage equality. Gusto ko lang iraise yung question, ano ang pinag-kaiba ng heterosexual relationship sa homosexual relationship kung LOVE naman ang nagbubuklod sa dalawang tao?

Eto kasi ang tinanong ko sa sarili ko, kung magpapakasal ba ako sa babae, magiging masaya ba ako? Makukumpleto ba ang buhay ko? Siguro sa simula oo. Pero alam ko, magkakaron ng kakulangan. Dahil merong kulang sa pagkatao ko na hindi mapupunan ng babae.

Malamang ang sunod na tanong dyan eh, pano ko naman nalaman? Try nilang panuorin yung episode 5 ng My Husband's Lover, dun sasabihin ni Lally na sya mismo may nararamdamang kulang. Kasi yung asawa nyang si Vincent ay hindi buo ang pagkatao. Hindi ko kayang magmahal ng babae katulad ng pagmamahal ko sa mga lalaking nagustuhan ko. May kanya kanya tayong outlook sa buhay. Masasabi kong selectively close-minded in nature ang mga tao. Syempre ang mga straight close-minded na sila na hindi sila makikipag-relasyon sa same-sex. Ganun din ang mga homosexual, close-minded na din na makipag-relasyon sa opposite sex.

Gusto ko ibalik yung question sa mga nagtatanong saken, Ikaw ba open makipagrelasyon sa same sex? Sigurado ako, isang malaking HINDI ang sagot dyan. Kaya wag mo na akong pangaralan na "iba pa din pag babae ang pakakasalan mo", kasi ikaw mismo hindi mo magetz ang point of view ko. Point of view mo yan as a straight person. Eto ang point of view ko as a homosexual.

Ngayon usapang anak naman. Hindi daw ako magiging fulfilled pag hindi ako nagkaroon ng sariling kong anak na kadugo ko. Ang masasabi ko dyan...

SAYS WHO?!

Again, eto nanaman ang tinuro satin nung mga bata tayo. Na dapat after magtapos ng pag-aaral mag-asawa't magka-anak. Inuulit ko, ito ay para sa heterosexual. Although may kakilala akong mga homosexuals na gusto din magka-anak, pero ako, ok lang kahit wala. Kung magkakaron man ako, it will be through artificial insemination katulad ng ginawa ni Joel Cruz. Hindi ko maatim na makipagtalik sa girl. Oh, may naririnig ako, hindi ko pa naman kasi nasubukan. Bago mo ko sabihan ng ganyan, siguraduhin mo lang kaya mong makipagsex sa same sex ah!

Oh may isa pakong narining, yung ibang bading nagkakaroon ng anak. Well, iba iba din naman kaming mga bading. Siguro sila, napagtanto nila na bading sila after nila magkaanak. Ako kasi 9 years old palang ako, alam ko na kung ano ako. Or sila kaya nilang sikmurain na makipagtalik sa babae. Pero ako hindi. Hindi ko kaya talaga. Kaya hinding hindi mangyayari. Iniisip ko palang kinikilabutan ako! Pwede ba!

Sa usapang relasyon naman, sabi ko nga kanina, hindi ko rin naman sure kung makakakita ako ng lalake para saken. Siguro dala na din ng magkakaron ko ng pusong babae, mala-fairy tale yung gusto kong Prince Charming. Sino bang hindi lumaki sa fairy tale? Pero syempre, si Prince Charming ay sa fairytales lang. Kaya nga ang hinahanap ko ay yung totoong tao. Yung hindi looks, hindi pera, at hindi koneksyon ang dahilan ng relasyon namin. Kundi pagmamahal. Idealistic diba? But I am prepared to live on my own kung wala din naman akong makikitang lalake na para saken. Kasama na yun sa preparations ko sa buhay ko. I chose to be gay and I will live with it. No drama. No whining.

Sa usapang kasal, kung bibigyan ng pagkakataon. Gusto ko naman din ikasal. Pero sa lalaking mahal ko at mahal ako. I'm prepared to take his surname. It will signify that I am entrusting him my whole body and soul. My life is his and I will be forever be in his service. I will take it abroad, wala namang pag-asa na magkaron ng same sex marriage dito sa Pilipinas. Sigurado ako kung magkakaron man, andaming restrictions. Kung sasabihin nyang, maging housewife ako, ok lang din sakin. Ganun ako magmahal eh.

Proud ako maging Dyosa. Kasama na yung ups and downs sa buhay. Ito ang buhay na pinili ko. Mas pinili kong ipakita sa mundo ang tunay na ako kesa, sabi nga ni Tita Bong, magtago sa cabinet. Tingin ko naman, I am emotionally and mentally ready for the life of a gay man. Currently pinupunan ang magiging financially ready. hihi!

I was so stressed earlier in the office. But I will not get into details about that I'd rather share the story that also happened earlier after I made touch down in Manila cemented pavement.

I marched to the nearest mall, SM San Lazaro, to get a fix of my favorite de-stress drink. I entered feeling all wet from walking in the rain. I left my parasol in the bin and stood in line for the cashier. It was not a long wait since there were only two patrons in front.

When it was my turn to order, the cute Barista smiled at me. He's not that cute at first glance. But his face has that awkwardness that really categorizes him into a a certified cutie. "Good evening Sir! Can I have your order?", the cutie barista named Jayvi gleefully exclaimed. Since I was on de-stress, I ordered my favorite non-caffeine drink: Mango Passion Fruit with an extra pump of White Mocha, No Tea, Venti. "Anything else Sir?", he said with a cute smile. "Pwede bang ikaw?", I thought. I just shook my head for my reply. Jayvi took a plastic venti cup and wrote down my order, "Can I have your name Sir?", he asked while showing his pearly whites. "It's Whil with an H. It's W-H-I-L.", I as-a-matter-of-factly mentioned. He wrote down my name and excitedly shared some options for my drink.

"Whil! Next time, instead of White Mocha, try nyo po with rock salt! =D"

"Really? What does it taste like?"

"Parang naglalaban yung tamis at alat. Parang kumain ng indian mango na may asin. =D", Wow! Complete with Simile ah!

"Sige, I'll have that next time!", and then I handed him my payment for my drink.

"I received 1000. Eto po ang change nila.", both of us smiling.

"Thank you Whil!", his last line while I move to the receiving line.

After a got my drink, I merrily sipped the mango goodness, and left the store with revived spirits. Kaya gusto ko ng Mango Passion Fruit eh, laging amy extra convo with the cutie barista! Hihihi!

Hadji Rieta
Bago kong crush! Ihihihihihihi!!!

Una ko syang napanood nung nagcocover sya ng bagyo sa Baguio. Dun palang, crush ko na sya kahit covered na covered ang outfit nya. He's so cuuuuuuuuuuuuteee!!!!

hihi! Landi!

Nashare ko nato sa mga tao sa Bataan. Now is the time to really put it in writing.

Ten Rules that govern Inhinyera Dyosa Whihelmina's life

Rule#1

"Kung gusto mong igalang ka ng mga tao, maging kagalang galang ka. Haliparot ka tapos gusto mo galangin ka?!"

Rule#2

"Wag kang gagawa ng bagay na maari mong ikahiya. Prevention is always better than Damage Control."

Rule#3

"Ang kaibigan di pinapatos, kung masarap sya, konting tiis, baka sa susunod twing nakikita ka nya, wala na syang ginawa kundi mainis."

Rule#4

"Wag tumikim kung pagsisisihan mo din. Di mo naman pwede isuka yan eh."

Rule#5

"Wag mong asahang proprotektahan at uunahin ka ng mga lalake. Hindi ka prinsesa teh."

Rule#6

"Pag nagmahal ng boylet, magtira rin ng pagmamahal sa sarili. Hindi dapat lahat ibinibigay."

Rule#7

"Pag nadapa, matutong tumayo mag-isa. Tapos, kumanta ng Stronger by Britney Spears."

Rule#8

"Wag hayaan ang mga tao ay husgahan ka dahil lang sa sexual orientation mo. Mas magaling ka sa kanila, at kaya mo yung patunayan."

Rule#9

"Lahat ng bagay sa mundo may dahilan. Kelangan mo lang hanapin o hintayin ang sagot"

Rule#10 *NEW*

"Maging mabuti ka, wag mabaet. Alay sa taong mahal ko. =D"

Sumakay ako ng jeep papuntang Pasig sa may Pureza. I figured dun nalang ako sasakay kesa sa may Quiapo, matatraffic pa ako papunta dun eh.

Lumiko na yung jeep sa may V. Mapa. From my seat, may nakita akong cutie na hinahabol yung jeep. Buti nalang nakita din sya nung driver kaya nakasakay sya.

At nakangiti na ang Dyosa! First cutie of the day!

Naging smooth sailing naman ang travel papuntang Shaw. May I sulyap sulyap nalang kay Cutie na nakauniform.

Sadly kailangan na namin maghiwalay ng landas. Bumaba na ako sa San Miguel Avenue. Pumunta nako dun sa building ng pag-eexaman ko.

Unfortunately super aga ko so ako'y nagstay muna sa Mini-Stop na malapet. Bumili ako ng Cobra tapos umupo sa eating area. Maya mayang konti, may pumasok na otoko. Naka semi-formal attire. Siguro may interview sya sa malapet na Call Center.

Infairness kay Kuya ah. Chinito and nerdy cute. TYPE! whahahha!!!

Sabay kaming tumayo at lumabas. yung building na pinuntahan nya eh katabi lang ng building na pupuntahan ko.

Umakyat na ako sa Unit ng testing area. Sarado pa yung pinto. May mga dumating na din na mag-eexam din sa outsourced testing company.

Ilang sandali pah, bumukas ulet yung elevator. May mestizong may hawak na paperbag na may lamang Jabee breakfast meal. Yes. Alam ko. Naamoy ko eh!

Pinapasok na kami ni Kuya. Apparently, sya pala yung personnel in charge for that day. Since ako yung unang pumasok, ako yung una nyang tinawag. Bali niset-up nya muna yung mga paperworks tapos ni-prepare nya yung mga rows of computers sa likod nung waiting area.

Tinawag nya ako ulet nung ready na yung computer ko. Nagbigay sya ng instructions about the exam. After nun, iniwan nya na ako para sagutin ko na yung exam.

Nung natapos na ako binigyan nya ako ng sruvey form. Since outsourced nga sila parang gusto nila na laging may improvement. O sige answer away!

QUESTION: What did you like most in the experience?
DYOSA'S ANSWER: Uhmmmmm... the cute personnel??? Ahiihii!!! =D

LANDIIIII!!!!!

Tatawa tawa pa ako habang naglalakad papuntang sakayan ng jeep sa sinagot ko! whahahha!

Sa Shaw, sumakay ulet ako ng jeep pabalik sa Pureza. Pagkaupo ko nashocking galore ako sa aking nasilayan.

Mestizo. Andaming nunal sa fezlak. Nakafitted shirt. Yummy ang body. Cutie.

Kaloka!

Para mawala ang isip ko kay yummy kuyabelles na kaharap ko sa jeep, tinext ko nalang ang Ate ko para mapagkwentuhan namin yung TANGING YAMAN eksena sa pamilya namin.

Kaso hindi pa din ako makapagconcentrate. Hindi mo talagang hindi mapatingin kay Yummy kuya! He's sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...

YUMMY!

There's no other word.

YUMMY TALAGA!

Sa haba ng ride namin. Nakatingin lang ako kay yummy kuya.

Yung mga nunal nya sa mukha na specially placed para gumwapo pa sya lalo.

Yung biceps nya na nakabulge dahil maikli lang yung sleeve ng kanyang body tight shirt.

Yung maamo nyang mga mata. Nakakahypnotize!

Kakaloka si Kuya! Pero katulad ng nangyari kanina, kelangan din namin maghiwalay ng landas. Bumaba na ako sa overpass sa may Pureza. Yon eh tumingin muna ako kay yummy Kuya, sabay Psychic kiss sa kanya. ETCHOS!

Naglakad na ako papuntang Lardizabal ng may nakita akong naka Engineering Uniform.

Si Bunso!!!

Kung sweswertehin ka naman talaga!

Ayun sabay na kami sumakay ng jeep pa Tayuman. Syempre kwento kwento. hihi!!

Haaaaay!!!

Ang saya ng araw na ito!

Finally! Napanood ko na din ang film na ito! Naloka naman ako sa haba, pero really really worth it ang almost 3 hrs of screen time! Ang ganda ganda nya! Grabeh!!!

Gusto ko sya kasi hindi lang sya basta basta gay themed movie. Actually parang patikim tikim nga lang yung homo elements eh. It's presented in a more realistic way in terms of identity crisis and self-discovery which I think that most people, if not all, undergo.

Madami din tinackle na issues about family, friendship, especially sa love.

Ang ganda ganda nya talaga!!!

Favorite Scenes *spoilers*


The Bed Scene
Super kilig ako para kay bakla!! Aaaaaaahhh!!! Aba mahirap atang makatabi mo ang mahal mo ng ganyan at hindi kayo ah! Kilig na kileg ako para kay bakla!!! Naku sigurado ako na sa isip ng sister na Mew na sana forever na lag silang ganun. (ay! nakarelate!) whahahah!


The morning after
Ayyyy!!! Bagong gising lang si Bakla humaba nanaman ang hair!!! Kileg!!!


The Party Concert Scene
Para saken eto yung pinakasweet na scene. Dahil alam mong kinakanta ni Mew yung kanta para kay Tong. Hindi mo man naiintindihan yung kanta directly from its original language, pag binasa mo yung subtitles, alam mo na kanta yun ng pagmamahal. At inaalay ni Mew yung pagmamahal na yun kay Tong. Nakangiti ako habang kinikilig!


The Kissing Scene
ONG HOBO NG HOR NI BOKLO!!! So Alas dose ng hating gabi, napatili ako dahil sa onscreen kiss na itu! Ako na nambubulabog ng kapitbahay! Super happy ako for you sister!!! Ahihihihihi! Sa sobrang kilig ko naging ganto yung reaction ko -->


Identity Crisis SceneNapakalaki ng impact nito sa akin. Although I have no personal experience on identity crisis kasi alam ko na sa simula palang kung ano ako. Marami, I'm so sure, ang makakarelate sa script ni Tong: Ano ba ako? Ano ba talaga ako?


Aex and Mew Confrontation SceneWell it's really just a friendly confrontation. Infairness naramdaman ko yung sincerity nung Aex ah. It really takes a real friend to apologize first (ay may first hand experience ako dyan!). Nayanig ako dun sa nabasa kong subtitles (see above). OMFG! Naalala ko sinabi din sakin yan ni Dadee, although not in verbatim, pero something in that extent.

Well, nasaisip ko kasi lagi na people will always choose others before me. Ganun kasi nangyari nung bata ako for a long time. Hanggang sa naging normal nalang sya saken. I needed to protect my heart from disappointments kaya I always sort of barricaded myself and keep a small distance of solace for myself.

Kaya siguro wala akong matuturing na bestfriend. Because if you ask any of my friends I'm so sure than I am not at the Top of any of their lists.

Well that's the thing that keeps me sane all these years kaya I'm still going to do it everytime.


Thank you crying scene
Sa sobrang relate ko kay Mew, matapos nyang sabihin yung "Thank you" line nya. Sabay na kaming nagbreakdown. Sabay kaming nag-ngangangawngaw. Hagulgol nga ako eh, buti nga sya may pigil factor pa. Ngawngaw ako hanggang sa matapos yung ending credits!

Witwisit Hiranyawongkul

O sige sa inyo na si Mario Maurer! Basta akin na si...

Witwisit Hiranyawongkul aka Pchy
Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd! Oh my Gawd!

Ang pogi pogi nya!!!


Himatay!
Feeling ko bagay kami... Pwede kaming WWW

Whil and Witwisit!
Etchos!!!

Nakakakilig sya habang kumakanta. At apparently, boses nya talaga yung scenes na kumakanta sya. Parang tailor fit sa kanya talaga yung role nya.

Super gaganda ng songs!!! Here are my favs:

Pieng ter


Gan lae gan


The movie was really a treat. Directors cut yung pinanuod ko, sulit na sulit!

Sa mundo ng Avatar, merong apat na klase ng Benders:

May Water Bender


May Air Bender

May Fire Bender

at may Earth Bender

Pero sa tunay na mundo, merong...

Magiging BISEXUAL ka!!!!!!
PAK!!!

EFFECT!!!